Exhausting an Eternal Flame

SimplyPiscesLogic
Jun 10, 2018
1 min read

I can feel myself slowly sinking back into 'that' hole. I feel it paralyzing me from the outside in. I can't speak; my mouth just won't open. I know I need to run, get as far from it as I can, but it only pulls me deeper. I feel it'll only get worse. I do what I can to bring silence to the thoughts, but anger quickly follows. I feel like a child again. My life is being dictated by someone who does not know what they are doing. They've laced my water with gasoline and I'm rushing to put out the fire. But it's beginning to burn brighter than I had intended. It almost seemed fun at first, as crazy as it sounds. Playing with fire usually does. The thought of having control over the uncontrollable is intoxicating. But now they're stealing my power; trying to suffocate me with their lies. I want them gone. The more I look, the more I can see the definition of hatred in their souls. My own soul cries, begging to escape never-ending pattern. I must stop them before they drive me to a point of "what could have been."

I won't continue to play this game with them. They have no power over me anymore. Education is the minds' greatest weapon, and I WILL use it. I will learn their language if I have to; I will play along for now. But when time comes, I WILL suffocate these flames and they will be no more.