Remember the Past, Embrace the Present

Change can be good or bad. Usually when I hear the word "change" I get a bit worried and resort to the most unlikely situations and think, "What should I do?"

This past year has been filled with lots of changes. It's crazy how one small thing can change your life. For me, it takes a while to get over things. Sure, things are hard and it takes everyone a while to get over them, but for me, it takes a really long time, even years maybe, just to get completely over one small thing.

I had a big group of friends at my other school. We were really close and I never thought I would ever have to leave them. It never crossed my mind that we might be separated one day, but just a few months ago, in November, I had to go. I'm still trying to cope with that; they were my best friends and I had spent several years with them. I wouldn't have that connection with anyone else.

We lived in a small town called Fort Gay. It was trashy and didn't have any diversity. But still to this day it holds deep memories that I'll never forget. Leaving was so heartbreaking.

But even though I miss it dearly, I have learned to not dwell on the past, don't live with so much nostalgia that it hurts to even see my old friends. My new school, here in the more town-like part of West Virginia, I have made some new friends, but they're scattered around. We just don't have that bond, and it's not the same. As painful as it is, I have to remember, do not dwell in the past.

This is my home now.

Thinking like that makes me truly believe I'll be okay. Sooner or later this place will feel like home.

When I was nine years old, I made a "diary" which was more like a book filled with nonsense, but I didn't care, nor did my friends. I let them write in it, whatever they wanted, and looking back at it, 4 years later, I'm not sure what to feel. I'm glad I still have the memories, although I wish the past could be now.

Even when I get on Social Media websites I see posts from my friends having fun. I hate that they are there, and I'm here. I hate to think about that school, either one of them. But I understand that this is where I'm at, I spent my time there, I knew every inch on that school, and now it's time for me to explore somewhere else.

I'll keep the memories in my heart and move on.

et lux luna,

SimplyAriesLogic